What I was thinking when Tom would come over

When Tom came over to the garage, things just changed a lot. At first I wasn't really thinking about it, but I eventually grew suspicious. I mean Tom was being nice and all about giving me the car, but something was just not right. When it was just me and Myrtle, Myrtle would just seem disheartened and just ignore me. However, when Tom walks into my shop, she starts to get all excited, but still ignores me. That's when I knew something was up. It would make sense for Myrtle to fancy Tom because she always wants the luxurious stuff and Tom has the money to provide for that life. However, I just let the situation be because I didn't know for one hundred percent it was Tom, but I would bet money on it. I just didn't want to get involved into anything more than what I already was. I feel like I've been dirt poor all my life, and Tom was rich and powerful. I'm sure if I would've spoken up, he could just get a hit on me and take me out. I wouldn't want to mess with him. All I want is for Myrtle to love me back. When Tom would come over, Myrtle didn't even look at me, so why should I expect her to love. I was a fool for thinking Tom just came over to visit.

Why I killed myself

Unlike the rich careless classes, the lower classes, like me, can't just retreat back into their money. My class actually has to take responsibility for their actions, and we don't have trips to Paris to make it all better. After killing Gatsby I really didn't feel like dealing with the consequences because life was already so bad for me. After all that had happened, I couldn't see things getting any better. The reason for living was no longer there.Times were already bad enough for me, before I killed Gatsby. I barely made enough to get Myrtle and I through. I already planned on killing myself because of the hard times and Myrtle having a relationship with another man.Once I actually found out that Myrtle was cheating on me without a doubt, it just set me off the edge. I wanted to kill myself more than ever, but I didn't want to die alone. I just killed myself with Gatsby to take someone down with me. I feel like I didn't deserve to die alone. After all Gatsby did hit Myrtle with the car, so i brought him to justice. At least I could do a little good before I killed myself. Moreover, I killed my self because I was angry. Not only angry at people, but the entire world. I have suffered so much my entire life, I I just couldn't take it any longer. Some people say suicide is a "permanent solution to a temporary problem." Even though it may be like that in most cases, my life was very tragic, and suicide was my only option.

What I was feeling when Myrtle always left

When Myrtle left unexpectedly sometimes, I became sad because I thought she would like to stay with me. When this started occurring more frequently, I grew angry and yet suspicious. Why would a girl need to leave so much.I began to notice that every time Tom would visit and leave, she would leave soon after. I grew so angry with her that I locked her up in my room above the garage.I also told her she might fool me but she couldn't fool God. I told her to look to the window... and said, "God knows what you've been doing. You may fool me, but you can't fool God." After this, I  began to feel bad because I didn't completely give her a chance to explain. I really just assumed  when I shouldn't have. Even though Myrtle may have been cheating on me, I have to admit that I still had feelings for her. Most of the time when she left unexpectedly, I would think of stuff she would be doing, and if she is even thinking about me. The more I thought about it, the sadder I got. I guess you could saw that I got depressed over time, because Myrtle was away from me more than she was with me. The more sad I got, the angrier I got also. I honestly felt Myrtle had betrayed me.