What I was feeling when Myrtle always left

When Myrtle left unexpectedly sometimes, I became sad because I thought she would like to stay with me. When this started occurring more frequently, I grew angry and yet suspicious. Why would a girl need to leave so much.I began to notice that every time Tom would visit and leave, she would leave soon after. I grew so angry with her that I locked her up in my room above the garage.I also told her she might fool me but she couldn't fool God. I told her to look to the window... and said, "God knows what you've been doing. You may fool me, but you can't fool God." After this, I  began to feel bad because I didn't completely give her a chance to explain. I really just assumed  when I shouldn't have. Even though Myrtle may have been cheating on me, I have to admit that I still had feelings for her. Most of the time when she left unexpectedly, I would think of stuff she would be doing, and if she is even thinking about me. The more I thought about it, the sadder I got. I guess you could saw that I got depressed over time, because Myrtle was away from me more than she was with me. The more sad I got, the angrier I got also. I honestly felt Myrtle had betrayed me.